before i start, let me clarify that the identity of the individual concerned has been blurred (not like i thought you, the readers, wouldn't be smart enough to guess who) in this entry as well as other written materials as an indication/disclaimer that our objective is impersonal and not to provoke conflicts.
call me petty, long winded, dramatic, spiteful or whatever because i don't care this time.
i'm following up on the brief (but surely insightful for many) episode on facebook where a
post regarding an unpleasant account we've had with an ex-member of the crew, in response to a
statement he's made which undoubtedly addressed myself. thankfully for a true friend of VI
(you know who you are, thank you!) who happened to witness and screen-captured the original before it got edited. that brainless individual must have discovered half his stupidity and decided on the ambiguous subject instead (or to be brutally honest, i thought he simply was too chicken for a downright approach).
unfortunately, he certainly wasn't smart enough to realise the other half, which exposed his stink beneath the sheepskin he's been hiding. just when he thought he was being all heroic and slick calling another stupid, he's conveniently saved us all that agony and put his own shame on display. oh yes i am so bringing this up again
because i deserve to. i'm
really unbothered if this would
kick up a fuss. not because i love conflicts or that my seniors/elders haven't taught me decent qualities/principles. i was taught to slap the mosquito when it doesn't stop sucking on my sweaty feet.
i deserve to be a drama queen because i've done my part on letting matters rest, containing all the anger, hurt and disappointment for the last 3 months. i deserve to be a grump because i've refrained from publicizing any detailed information to the mass to deliberately cause any damage to the individual involved in this matter. i deserve to be a petty old shit because it was obviously a provocation when i had mentioned clearly with the intent of closing the chapter 3 bloody months ago,
however, the individual concerned chose to dig it all up 3 days ago. who's the petty shit now?
(read the rest of the above entry here).
most of all, i actually truly feel that i deserve to be ungracious, without anymore reservations because this individual who had used up all patience and respect i have for anybody 3 months ago, right now has completely gone beyond the point of humanity i could spare for his immaturity.
we were told to forgive his adolescence, we were advised to act like adults and let the matter rest, we were reminded of how it would tarnish our image as reputable professionals if we put up a fight, we were expected to be magnanimous and hold the door behind an ungrateful piece of dirt as he swaggered out to leave behind all that mess, lies, frauds and distaste for us to clean up after. oh and while we bit our lips to comply and lived up to expectations, he was free to speak ill of us because he always had a knack for speaking of and portraying himself as Mr Misunderstood. (hey! wasn't that the story we bought too?!)
i think we've tried our hardest and did a decent job for the last quarter. we deserve a break. we are not educators, counsellors, politician leaders and definitely not saints (they are allowed to make mistakes too). we are just tattoo artists, as human as you and we feel anger, unjust, rage, dismay, pain, let down and all kinds of negativity as you would when someone tries to ruin your plans, steal your compassion, cheat your hard earned money, rob your generosity and betray your trust.
(these are not mere accusations, guesses or just a figure of speech. this is not about taking sides and we will not make allegations without grounds. anybody who's interested, please send an email if you wish to see the facts and solid evidence we've gathered.)
we had wanted all this to be over, to move on and be happy again. we really did. nevermind the bullcrap we were told when he decided to leave, it wasn't like we were stopping him for him to find it necessary to brew such a bizarre excuse to leave.
i've been curbing my irk and urge to be nasty by reminding myself of how he's moulding himself into a joke, it helps i must say. sometimes i would get so carried away i even thought of making him a suggestion to consider becoming a comedian, or clown. least effort required, his favorite.
(just in case you're wondering about my level of intelligence, so you can justly justify the statement that was made against me, let me sum it up quickly. i am not your genius with mechanisms in general, needless to mention, the ones i used for tattoo. i just don't have a natural interest into the depth of these tattoo machines and i'm not too ambitious to go beyond my knowledge of the fundamental, let's not forget that i am still pretty much a fresh artist to have spent enough time getting to know machines. i proudly admit that i would not act smart and would, on a regular day be glad to let someone else who's well-versed in that field to handle anything complicated. this 'someone' is definitely one i consider trustworthy.)
love & peace,
peenut,,